Just Jump {Frankenstein’s Grand Finale} – End of the Dear Frankenstein Saga

What happens when your only way out is so final, yet so beautiful?

When the only one you’ve got is your captor, your abuser?

When your chance at a legitimate escape is too far away, when you’ve just got to get away now?

I’ll tell you what happens:

You get a little crazy, a little careless.

You can’t remember all of the people who care for you, the ones who would miss you.

You get selfish.

You can’t see what causes it, so you can’t fix it… this dysfunction.

You know you can’t just change it, because you’re not the only one involved.

So… You run.

The first chance you get, you run.

But there’s no where to go.

You know they’ll come.

You know they’ll find you.

So, you run.

Just until you find a beautiful space.

It’s so beautiful, it might already be heaven.

You’ll find out soon.

It’s a beautiful cliff.

Maybe they’ll think you fell.

It doesn’t matter.

Don’t leave a note;

Let them think what they will.

Jump.

Now’s your chance.

Hear them coming?

They’re closing in.

Quick!

Before they catch you.

This is your last chance to escape.

Jump.

It won’t hurt once you’ve hit the bottom.

It can’t be any worse than everyday.

Do it now,

Before there’s anymore pain.

Don’t start thinking.

They’ll get over you.

Move on without you.

Jump.

Before it’s too late again.

Just jump.

Nothing will ever hurt again.

Quick!

Do it quick!

Jump.

… Just Jump.

*This is the end of a tortured life.*

Turns out…

The bad guys win.

…………

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Broken Home [A Poem]

Here we go again
No room left to pretend

The word ‘love’
Is just junk
It’s meant to cover up

The scars and the bruises
Of fights day and night
The mental abuses
It just isn’t right

Surviving together
In this torture room
This shattered home
Can provide no room

To breath but to see
Hearts of soot and ash
When the cold took over
It broke them in half

Strangle me
Stab me
Swallow me whole

Spit me out
String me up
Drop me hard down a hole

Let me crash and burn
But never learn
The sins of this home
The lie that is ‘love’

It never ends
Like a carnival ride
Round and round
And up and down

Never let me drown
Just choke for a little while
Then pull me up
And whip my back

Then start again
On the next go round

I can’t get off
This merry-go-round
In Frankenstein’s carnival
No mercy can be found

Like jungle cats
We fight in silence
Tearing to shreds
‘Til it rains down red

The acid in the blood
Which pours like a flood
Burns my wounded back
Where you whipped me
As revenge for my subtle attack

I knew by now
You could be so cruel
But to turn your back
Your subtle attack
For a simple question
I need not have asked

The silence ringing in my ears
It’s scathing tone buries me whole
In soot and ash
And prolongs your attack

All the shards
From the windows and walls
Of our broken home
They envelope my soul
And take me into the fold

Bury me in this mold
As the one who couldn’t go

Freeze me in time
As the failure
Who couldn’t get out
To save her own soul

But chained to a wall
She fell through the floor
She rotted away

Had she ever been there at all?

The victim of a broken home
The subtle abuses
They ate through her soul

Not breathing but seeing
The monster’s true form
Left on her own
In this permanently broken home

Can’t live with
Can’t afford to live without

Then die together
In the torture room
Of this irrevocably broken home

……

Round and round
On the merry-go-round
Frankenstein’s carnival
Has taken you down

Dear Frankenstein

Have you forgotten all you taught me,
Dear Frankenstein?
Let me remind you
Of of how we came to be this way:::...

Dear Frankenstein
I'd just like to say
Why I finally went away

From early on
You taught me well
About omissions and lies
And doing them well

An omission is not a lie
I learned early on
But you changed your tune
When you thought I had gone

You failed to instill
The difference between
You and me
And the ants on my feet

So  an omission I made
To you one day
Because also you taught me
Withholding information is key

You called it a lie
And stood silent for days
Well guess what?
You pushed me away

You changed your mind
When you called it a lie
And a whole lot changed
On that night

My hero, my saint
Held up so high
Dear Frankenstein
You fell from the sky

Hit the ground
Landed on your face
Embrace the change
Nothing can be the same

Now you roam
Amongst the rest
With an H on your face
For Hypocrite

And a Hypocrite
You will remain
Because monsters do
As they are trained

In no time since then
You said I'd lied
Because I trusted you
To see inside

Silly me
I made a mistake
When I trusted you
Again today

Never again
Will it happen to me
Trusting you
Is what dug your grave

Every monster has a Frankenstein
We are born as clay
And shaped by your ways

You wanted a liar
An omit-er
A tool

You got what you asked for
Ten fold, you fool

Betrayed by your monster
You sent it away
And expected it would learn
But return some day

Stupid you
You hypocrite
You fool!

You started digging that grave
The day you taught your monster
To think for itself
It's own ideas to make

And in translation
You fell through the cracks
No decision was made
About who to respect

Dear Frankenstein
I must say
I'm not sorry
You pushed me away

Learned a lot this time
About trust and disdain
Surely you know
That you dug your own grave

It was not me
Who chose this fate
Dear Frankenstein
...
You made me this way.